Crazy
The goal is to not go crazy
as you teem with the rest of them
not looking forward to compete
but looking over to see what kind of damage everyone is in
while refusing to shut it out
out of fear that you will shut down.
The goal is to go crazy once in a while
just to remind yourself and everyone around you
that you are still human
and maybe they are a little bit too
and maybe the flash from your crazy explosion
will be like a beacon to someone else there
lost out in the crowd there
wondering if they are the only one feeling the tension on their neck
bracing like a mad horse against the cut of the bit
feeling the price paid for awareness
holding onto the ability to go wild once in a while
trying to remember that
the goal is not to go crazy.